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Why I am an atheist and reject religion Part 2
I’ve come to the conclusion that I will never ever be arrogant enough to be a theist. I’m simply incapable of getting my head around the thought that the entire universe with all its galaxies and planets was built entirely for one species – humans.
I can’t get my head around people who are so desperate to feel special that they hear voices in their heads and attribute it to a higher power talking to them just so they can walk around feeling smug that they hear a voice no-one else hears. Or so they can walk around with a sense of superiority because they have an invisible and powerful friend that speaks to them and tells them things. A friend that is the central character in a book written for one species thousands of years ago, a book that has been translated into many different languages yet somehow has never ever lost any data or mistranslated anything, a book that has a character that is suppousedly all knowing, all seeing and all forgiving.
A perfect all knowing, all seeing, all forgiving character who loves you and speaks to you and wants to be your friend? Sounds too good to be true.
Except when the times he is not. How can he be all knowing when he gets angry over us sinning? Wouldn’t he know we were going to sin with the free will he gave us? If he was all seeing, wouldn’t he see the sin coming? If he was all forgiving then why do we need to beg for forgiveness and repent? Why did the god chaaracter create hell? Why is he so intent on controlling the masses with his rules and demands of praise?
I’m also not direction-less enough to be a theist. I don’t need a book written thousands of years ago by illiterate sheep herders in the desert to inform me how to live my life. I certainly don’t need a book to inform the people around me how I think they should be living their lives.
I couldn’t be a theist because that would mean I would have to create an invisible character in my head that I attribute all my wins in life to (but call the fails “tests”) rather than attributing them to the individuals that actually deserve it.
If I was a theist, you can be sure that I would either have to:
A) create this invisible character in my head to have exactly the same morals and beliefs I have (If I hate black people then it will hate black people – Authours note: I don’t hate black people) because it would be easier to believe that it is real. Ignoring the parts of the holy book I won’t read fully will help me reinforce my view that my character is just like me.
B) be indoctrinated since birth to believe that the character in my mind already believes horrible things like “sinners are going to hell” because it says so in the holy text I may or may not read , meaning I would have to create reasons as to why the character believes those things. This serves to make me feel okay about that character believing those things so I don’t have to admit that character is a jerk. For example: “sinners are bad so that’s why they are going to hell”.
C) create the character to be everything I need it to be to make me feel better. If to feel better I need an all knowing, all loving, all forgiving friend who loves me no matter what, who forgives me for all my fuck ups and knows exactly what is going on in a world full of chaos and random acts – then I will create the character to be exactly that. If I need a character who hates everyone I hate and who judges those people so I can feel better about hating others and judging them then I will create a character than reflects that.
D) if I had a lot of guilt and had a need for someone to be angry at me – I would need to create the character in my mind to be vengeful. The vengeful character would also be useful if I needed an excuse for my hatred of others.
Not only am I not arrogant enough to think that the universe was created specifically for me nor am I needy enough to need a parental figure in the sky to feel loved – I also don’t need to feel like the human race has a purpose on this planet.
One of religions weapons of Mass Indoctrination is to feed off the need for purpose. The human race seems to have a need to feel like it has a purpose or a meaning – which is why “god created everything” as ridiculous as it sounds, seems to have more acceptance in society than the random chance that the universe came into being via the Big Bang.
If the universe was put here by chance, that means we have no purpose, it means the god character didn’t create us for a purpose – I for one think this is fucking great. No purpose, no preplanned destiny means that we get to choose our own as individuals. That’s fabulous and far better than the thought that a being in the sky created us because it needed servants to worship him or because he needed someone to love him or simply to see if he could create us. The thought that we are nothing more than the god characters experiment is horrifying. The thought that this life is nothing more than a test laid out by a needy abusive higher power – seemly as a way for us to prove our worth and love to him – is horrifying.
It’s a good thing that I’m not a theist, that shit just seems all too hard.
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